Tuesday, January 13, 2009
I can't keep being your last call
So I get a text yesterday, from someone I hadnt spoken with in a while. The text stated that things were not going well for her and she was afraid to lose her relationship. So of course I console her and try to make things better. She always text me or calls me when things like this happen. I have set aside the fact that 2 years of my life were given to her in a relationship that did not survive. I just find it awkward to know that she is reaching out to her ex-girlfriend instead of other people. I can only do/say so much. I cant make anything better, I would try if I could. This is the same girl that gets mad if I mention dating or anyone I am seeing. She tells me to be happy, but cant stand it when I am. Its a double edged sword. I dont know what to do what to say. All I can do is listen. I try to do that, but when I make a comment to respond to something she has said its always the wrong comment. Dont ask for my opinion if you dont want it. I have been keeping thngs from her, she wants to know every minute detail in my life. She hasnt wanted anything to do with me since 2005 so why should I tell her things. I will care about her, and I always will wish her well, I just cant keep being her last call. She has to sort things out on her own now.
Monday, January 12, 2009
you know you have been to Camp Don Lee if....
1. If there is a board somewhere at camp with your name on it.
2. If you've ever fixed something with Duct tape or Green String.
3. If you have an anklet
4. If you have ever forbid the use of the word Seagull
5. If you go on the Ferry and wish you had bread
6. If you dont think pools where you can see the bottom exist.
7. If you've sailed in brown water
8. If you have dirt lines and tan lines that don't match up
9. If you think Singing is a legit way to ward away jellyfish
10. If you miss camp so much it hurts sometimes.
11. If you think 4 square should be an actual sport
12. If the only way you can eat things is to put copious amounts of Ranch Dressing on them
13. If having Hot Chocolate after every meal in the Summer isnt a weird concept.
14. If you know how to wash your laundry at camp
15. If you have ever been thrown in a pool on your birthday... or for singing Rise and Shine.
16. If you know all of the words to Rise and Shine
17. If you've had a PB and J and a Chicken Sandwich at the same meal.
18. If you think Chicken Ranch Burritos are a gift from God
19. If water polo is more than just a game to you
20. If you have ever cheered by simply saying the word 'Yay' and waved your fists above your head
21. If you know 30 different beginnings to the Johnny Appleseed Blessing.
22. If you have ever sung a blessing in a public place
23. If you think waking up at 715 all summer is worth it
24. If you get tired at 1:00
25. If you know Hayride etiquette
26. If you have ever suddenly had the urge to play guitar
27. If your idea of a good time is going to Target
28. If you get camp sick
29. If you have ever spent more than 24 hours at a time in Pamlico County.
30. If there is a list of things you have broken
31. If you have ever played Signs
32. If you could do TP shuffle with your eyes closed.
33. If the word Tweeker does not get spell checked in your Microsoft Word
34. If you dont think of the baseball team when you hear about the Mariners.
35. If you know the words and the motions to Desperado
36. If you know what someone tapping their shoulder with 2 fingers means.
37. If you own a pair of croakies
38. If you own a water proof bag.
39. If you know more about recent events in P-county than major events in the rest of the world.
40. If you could wear camp shirts for more than a week without wearing them twice
41. If you have ever referred to a semester as a session
42. If you think of new and different ways to lie to small children every week.
43. If you have ever pretended to be married or to be someones sibling at camp.
44. If a child has guessed your age to be over 30 when you aren't 20 yet.
45. If you have a wet and dry pair of rainbows.
46. If you have seen every color of crocs ever made.
47. If you learned new cheesy pick-up lines by going swimming.
48. If you've ever been screamed at by 16 kids to have fun.
49. If bottled water tastes funny to you after the summer is over.
50. If you have ever fed apples to snapping turtles.
51. If you get angry when people say the word "Shop"
52. If you know what roses and thorns are.
53. If you have ever prayed for wind.
54. If you have ever sung a "repeat after me song"
55. If you have ever made the sound of a whip while you were blessing the food.
56. If you have ever had a small cut that lasted for over 3 weeks.
57. If you have a life jacket tan
58. If you have ever gone swimming with a lifejacket because you were too lazy to actually tread water.
59. If you have played the awkward question game.
60. If you fill time between summers by going to school.
61. If you have spent an entire pay check on most of the following: food, bug spray, sunscreen, and duct tape.
62. If your shower time is directly proportionate to how much hot water you get... ie; if you've gone for more than a week without one.
63. If you know the value of morning meds.
64. If you take a sailing class and are forbidden from answering questions because you answered every one of the previous ones...
65. If you sing "WOOOO" after phrases in the birthday song.
66. If you aren't afraid of the path to the LIT cabin.
67. If you can't listen to the radio without saying... we should make a caper cheer to this song...recently added...
68. If you and have ever made your friends at school learn a camp blessing and sing in in the caf.
69. If you miss having as many dirt lines than tan lines.
70. If you know what Ladder Golf (dangleballs) is.
71. If you know where to find people on their nights off depending on what time it is.
2. If you've ever fixed something with Duct tape or Green String.
3. If you have an anklet
4. If you have ever forbid the use of the word Seagull
5. If you go on the Ferry and wish you had bread
6. If you dont think pools where you can see the bottom exist.
7. If you've sailed in brown water
8. If you have dirt lines and tan lines that don't match up
9. If you think Singing is a legit way to ward away jellyfish
10. If you miss camp so much it hurts sometimes.
11. If you think 4 square should be an actual sport
12. If the only way you can eat things is to put copious amounts of Ranch Dressing on them
13. If having Hot Chocolate after every meal in the Summer isnt a weird concept.
14. If you know how to wash your laundry at camp
15. If you have ever been thrown in a pool on your birthday... or for singing Rise and Shine.
16. If you know all of the words to Rise and Shine
17. If you've had a PB and J and a Chicken Sandwich at the same meal.
18. If you think Chicken Ranch Burritos are a gift from God
19. If water polo is more than just a game to you
20. If you have ever cheered by simply saying the word 'Yay' and waved your fists above your head
21. If you know 30 different beginnings to the Johnny Appleseed Blessing.
22. If you have ever sung a blessing in a public place
23. If you think waking up at 715 all summer is worth it
24. If you get tired at 1:00
25. If you know Hayride etiquette
26. If you have ever suddenly had the urge to play guitar
27. If your idea of a good time is going to Target
28. If you get camp sick
29. If you have ever spent more than 24 hours at a time in Pamlico County.
30. If there is a list of things you have broken
31. If you have ever played Signs
32. If you could do TP shuffle with your eyes closed.
33. If the word Tweeker does not get spell checked in your Microsoft Word
34. If you dont think of the baseball team when you hear about the Mariners.
35. If you know the words and the motions to Desperado
36. If you know what someone tapping their shoulder with 2 fingers means.
37. If you own a pair of croakies
38. If you own a water proof bag.
39. If you know more about recent events in P-county than major events in the rest of the world.
40. If you could wear camp shirts for more than a week without wearing them twice
41. If you have ever referred to a semester as a session
42. If you think of new and different ways to lie to small children every week.
43. If you have ever pretended to be married or to be someones sibling at camp.
44. If a child has guessed your age to be over 30 when you aren't 20 yet.
45. If you have a wet and dry pair of rainbows.
46. If you have seen every color of crocs ever made.
47. If you learned new cheesy pick-up lines by going swimming.
48. If you've ever been screamed at by 16 kids to have fun.
49. If bottled water tastes funny to you after the summer is over.
50. If you have ever fed apples to snapping turtles.
51. If you get angry when people say the word "Shop"
52. If you know what roses and thorns are.
53. If you have ever prayed for wind.
54. If you have ever sung a "repeat after me song"
55. If you have ever made the sound of a whip while you were blessing the food.
56. If you have ever had a small cut that lasted for over 3 weeks.
57. If you have a life jacket tan
58. If you have ever gone swimming with a lifejacket because you were too lazy to actually tread water.
59. If you have played the awkward question game.
60. If you fill time between summers by going to school.
61. If you have spent an entire pay check on most of the following: food, bug spray, sunscreen, and duct tape.
62. If your shower time is directly proportionate to how much hot water you get... ie; if you've gone for more than a week without one.
63. If you know the value of morning meds.
64. If you take a sailing class and are forbidden from answering questions because you answered every one of the previous ones...
65. If you sing "WOOOO" after phrases in the birthday song.
66. If you aren't afraid of the path to the LIT cabin.
67. If you can't listen to the radio without saying... we should make a caper cheer to this song...recently added...
68. If you and have ever made your friends at school learn a camp blessing and sing in in the caf.
69. If you miss having as many dirt lines than tan lines.
70. If you know what Ladder Golf (dangleballs) is.
71. If you know where to find people on their nights off depending on what time it is.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Charleston!
I am headed down to Charleston On Feb 27th. I am excited a weekend to relax with my cousin and her kids. Anyone want anything? If so, jump in the car with me!
Less than 5 months to go
So I turn 30 in May. I have been worried about it and upset about it....Screw it. Some people dont start living until 30. Thats almost the case with me. I started living at 28, sobered up and changed, strated living. I know that I am almost 30, unmarried, no kids, and thats ok. My dad was 31 when I was born. The last thing on my mind is having a kid. I wanna have a partner and a house before kids come into the picture. I cant take care of myself let alone a kid. Just saying. I have decided to go back to school in August. If I dont go now, I will never go. I wanna get a degree in Education and be a teacher. I think thats something I can do. I believe in me. For a change. Screw what everyone else thinks....I gotta be me. I am what I am take it or leave it. My twenties were filled with people pushing me down, and I dont care anymore. You cant do it anymore. Yeah I regret being 23-28 but what can I do. I changed and in 5 years I will be a different person. I will be someone better than I am right now. I will be a teacher, so I will be someones hero. Thats my theory. I would be a fun teacher, and goof off and someone who cares. Thats whats important.
Summertimes Calling Me
I remember this past winter
I told myself to settle down
And I seriously tried to do just that
Now here I am with everything
So beautiful and green
And I don’t believe that I told myself what I mean
Maybe someday soon I can feel this way around
But it’s summertime and I don’t want to stay in this town
I wanna sit there in the sand
Watch those golden tans go walking by
I know it isn’t fair cause you might really care
But it’s different now, Summertime’s calling me
I don’t think I’m ready to develop a routine
When it’s cold and snow’s on the ground
It’s a different scene
Maybe someday soon I can feel this way around
But it’s summertime and I don’t want to stay in this town
I wanna sit there in the sand
Watch those golden tans go walking by
I know it isn’t fair cause you might really care
But it’s different now, Summertime’s calling me
I told myself to settle down
And I seriously tried to do just that
Now here I am with everything
So beautiful and green
And I don’t believe that I told myself what I mean
Maybe someday soon I can feel this way around
But it’s summertime and I don’t want to stay in this town
I wanna sit there in the sand
Watch those golden tans go walking by
I know it isn’t fair cause you might really care
But it’s different now, Summertime’s calling me
I don’t think I’m ready to develop a routine
When it’s cold and snow’s on the ground
It’s a different scene
Maybe someday soon I can feel this way around
But it’s summertime and I don’t want to stay in this town
I wanna sit there in the sand
Watch those golden tans go walking by
I know it isn’t fair cause you might really care
But it’s different now, Summertime’s calling me
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Charleston
So I went to Charleston for Christmas. The day after Christmas we went and explored the town. It was amazing. beautiful town. I wanna go back so bad. thats one of my new years resolutions, to go back to school and go back to charleston!
Holidays
I didnt type a blog about Christmas I am a slacker. Ok well here it goes.
Christmas Eve.
I got off work at about 3pm, drove to Dads. We took my Uncle John and his son Tyler to Logans for dinner. When we got back to the house, I realized that I hadnt wrapped any of Dads gifts! I am such a slacker. So I wrapped his gifts and put them under our Charlie Brown tree. (Its a tree that sits on a end table, seriously). We had a discussion as to when we should open our gifts since we were leaving for Charleston EARLY Christmas Morning. Dad wanted to open them that night. He's a big kid he really is. Its was quite cute watching him open his gifts! I was just as excited about my gifts too. I got a steamer! I dont iron so thats a perfect alternative.
Christmas Morning.
I got up at 7am, and fought off the urge to take off running down the hall to see what I got. Everything was still sitting in the floor so I saw no point in being in a hurry. I managed to pull my lazy self out of bed sat at my kitchen table complaining because I wanted to go back to bed. We packed up Christmas presents and our stuff to head to Charleston. Dad put Karen's address in the GPS. The GPS took us all over the place. I didnt ever think we were gonna get to I-95. We finally got on I-95. Once on I-95 I started to count the South of the Border signs since there is one every 100 yards. I tried to get dad to stop at South of the Border so I could get some fireworks, he said no. This depressed me. We were on I-95 for what seemed like an eternity. We got off I-95 onto 26 to Charleston. I dont know how anyone can stay awake on taht stretch of road, trees on both sides. Incredibly boring. We finally got to Charleston and the GPS did manage to succesful guide us right to Karen's house. We parked and I climbed out of the truck and it was hot. I mean 80 degrees hot. I had on a sweatshirt, that immediatly came off! Immediatly!
Christmas Day Part 2
My cousin Paul and Uncle Mitchell were already there. I had never been in their new house. It is quite nice. Ian was sitting in the play room watching a movie. Caleb was playing with some toys. Karen was in the living room and Danny was outside cooking up some oysters. Aunt Dottie showed up a short time later. She had some mini crab cakes, that were amazing. Just wanted to mention that. I took the tour of the house. I really like it. Really. We all kinda congregated and just chatted and goofed off for a while. There was no formality in this Christmas dinner. We put up a collapsable table in the screened in porch. Dad, Paul, Uncle Mitchell and danny were shucking oysters and Ian kept saying I want a baby oyster. It was adorable. i attacked the crablegs. When I say attacked. I mean attacked. After the crablegs I sat outside and shucked oysters and chatted. It was nice. Then I needed a nap, no nap would be afforded to me. We opened gifts, let me rephrase, Caleb and Ian opened our gifts. The rest of the day we spend Wii bowling! That was fun. I collapsed when I went ot bed, I was exhausted!
It was a good day!
Christmas Eve.
I got off work at about 3pm, drove to Dads. We took my Uncle John and his son Tyler to Logans for dinner. When we got back to the house, I realized that I hadnt wrapped any of Dads gifts! I am such a slacker. So I wrapped his gifts and put them under our Charlie Brown tree. (Its a tree that sits on a end table, seriously). We had a discussion as to when we should open our gifts since we were leaving for Charleston EARLY Christmas Morning. Dad wanted to open them that night. He's a big kid he really is. Its was quite cute watching him open his gifts! I was just as excited about my gifts too. I got a steamer! I dont iron so thats a perfect alternative.
Christmas Morning.
I got up at 7am, and fought off the urge to take off running down the hall to see what I got. Everything was still sitting in the floor so I saw no point in being in a hurry. I managed to pull my lazy self out of bed sat at my kitchen table complaining because I wanted to go back to bed. We packed up Christmas presents and our stuff to head to Charleston. Dad put Karen's address in the GPS. The GPS took us all over the place. I didnt ever think we were gonna get to I-95. We finally got on I-95. Once on I-95 I started to count the South of the Border signs since there is one every 100 yards. I tried to get dad to stop at South of the Border so I could get some fireworks, he said no. This depressed me. We were on I-95 for what seemed like an eternity. We got off I-95 onto 26 to Charleston. I dont know how anyone can stay awake on taht stretch of road, trees on both sides. Incredibly boring. We finally got to Charleston and the GPS did manage to succesful guide us right to Karen's house. We parked and I climbed out of the truck and it was hot. I mean 80 degrees hot. I had on a sweatshirt, that immediatly came off! Immediatly!
Christmas Day Part 2
My cousin Paul and Uncle Mitchell were already there. I had never been in their new house. It is quite nice. Ian was sitting in the play room watching a movie. Caleb was playing with some toys. Karen was in the living room and Danny was outside cooking up some oysters. Aunt Dottie showed up a short time later. She had some mini crab cakes, that were amazing. Just wanted to mention that. I took the tour of the house. I really like it. Really. We all kinda congregated and just chatted and goofed off for a while. There was no formality in this Christmas dinner. We put up a collapsable table in the screened in porch. Dad, Paul, Uncle Mitchell and danny were shucking oysters and Ian kept saying I want a baby oyster. It was adorable. i attacked the crablegs. When I say attacked. I mean attacked. After the crablegs I sat outside and shucked oysters and chatted. It was nice. Then I needed a nap, no nap would be afforded to me. We opened gifts, let me rephrase, Caleb and Ian opened our gifts. The rest of the day we spend Wii bowling! That was fun. I collapsed when I went ot bed, I was exhausted!
It was a good day!
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