people like to get me riled up

So, there are a few things I am passionate about. Not many at all, but a few. One of those is my opinion on things. Sometimes I will budge, other times I wont. One example is this- Gay rights- I will budge a little one, because I know that I can never marry my partner here in NC. WE should be able to have equal rights but its never gonna happen. Enough of that.
A few days ago a friend asked me if I thought a man had actually ever been to the moon. My answer surprised him. No. I dont think anyone has. If they have, why havent they been back? We go and orbit the earth 900 times, but we never go back to the moon. I know that Space is the Final Frontier (According to Capt. Jean-Luc Picard). I just dont think it happened. I could be wrong, probably am actually.
The moon landing took place during the Nixon administration. I guess there needed to be a bright spot in his administration admist Vietnam, and Watergate. (Everyone I have asked about Nixon, did like him). Was this a continuation of former presidental agendas? Kennedy wanted us to be in the space race. (President Kennedy is a whole other topic! I will proceed with it in a moment.) We had all the Apollo missions, and the almost tragedy of Apollo 13. It was something that yes, we needed to do. We did need to go into space, it should have never been a race. Let Russia have the lead for once, but I guess if they did (Sputnik) everyone would panic. On too a topic that I really have formulated my own opinion about. President Kennedy and his assassination. (Sit down this is gonna take a minute.)
Kennedy was the youngest elected president. He was 43 when elected. A young man to be sitting in the Oval Office bearing the weight of the world on his shoulders. He chose Lyndon Johnson as his running mate. I have done a lot of reading about Kennedys presidency, and it seems to me like he didnt even like Johnson. Did Johnson have something to do with the assassination of President Kennedy? Yes, I think he did. I will give you a few reasons why I think so. Johnson was from Texas. He knew Dallas, he also changed the motorcade route at the last moment to it would go right in front of the Texas School Book Depository. He also was in a convertable several cars behind the president. He was wearing a ear piece (much like you use today on your Ipod) hooked to a small radio. He ducked down in the convertable he was in moments BEFORE the shots were fired. (I would already assume guilt). He goes to Parkland Hospital (he is not technically president at this point), and intervenes in the care for the President. He goes to board Air Force One to be sworn in, and gets mad at the Secret Service and others, because they put the Presidents body on the plane first. (A sitting President always enters first.) Then he entered and was sworn in. As soon as he finished his swaring in, he looked at a gentleman behind him and winked. If he was gonna wink, why not just give a thumbs up....geez.
Johnson then put together the Warren Commision, (which included future president Gerald Ford). They said it was all done by Lee Harvey Oswald. Doubtful, very doubtful. I have watched the Zappradaur film, several times, and you see the president move backwards when he is shot in the head. If a bullet had been coming from behind him and it would have from the Texas School Book Depository, he would have lunged forward, not backward. We were all taught in school about the Magic Bullet theory. One bullet hit Kennedy, hit the seat in front of him and pass through it before hitting Governor Connelly. I remember being in US History in middle school and thinking to myself there was no way that could happen. I think we are taught that to make people not think about what really happened.
I went to Dallas in 2004, and I went to the Texas School Book Depository, and looked out the window that Oswald shot out of. I walked the grassy knoll. There is a X on the road where the President was shot. Did Oswald take a shot at the President? Yes, I think he did. His shot was probably the one that hit the President in the back. Yes, the President had more than one wound.
I think alot was covered up in his assassination and Johnson desire to be President. Honestly what did Johnson do? He did the Civil Rights Act (which Kennedy was supportive of), and he threw us into Vietnam. Vietnam....I will leave that one alone, (we should have never been there in the first place.) Ok I am going to get off my sopabox now! Feel free to comment.

True Story,
Estee

I get so tired of wondering why....

Everyone knows I was adopted. Its no secret. My family told me when I was a child. Even though at the time I wasnt sure what that meant. Well here I am less than 2 months from turning 30 and still dont know. I think what gets me is that someone can just give up there kid. I mean really???? I honestly believe my birthmother used adoption as a form of birth control. I know there were 3 of us. It has been brought to my attention that there could even be one more. WHY? Don't get me wrong, I grew up wiht GREAT parents, and a wonderful extended family. I guess I just wanted to know where I came from.
Well I met the Birthmom in 1998. It shattered any image I ever had of her in my mind. In my mind she was the leader of the pack, the CEO, CFO, COO, etc. When in reality she was none of these. I dont understand.
I met the Birthfather too. He was nice enough, but he didnt think I was his. I look just like him! CARBON COPY....I have a picture to prove it.
He claimed that he didnt know either time. I don't know. I think he knew something. I really do.
....to be adopted is to be adapted.... That is the truest statement I know. I think if had never met the birthfamily that things would be different. I am glad I know, since I always wondered. I met them both on my own terms, after giving me away, the least they could do was listen to my terms on something.
Sorry for the rant, but I hold alot of ANGER in my heart about this. Now I am gonna spend my time trying to figure out if I have another sibiling out there. Its hard to search, but I have a birthdate. We will see, I will update as I learn more.

True Story,
Estee