Anger

Why am I so angry today? I dont know. Maybe its because I am here by myself....AGAIN. Maybe its because Christi is stressed out too. We are both just on eggshells these days. I keep trying to help out and keep getting asked not too. Why is that everytime I get to the top of a mountain I fall back down it. Its annoying. I wanna stay at the top for once in my life. I feel like I am in a repeative cycle. It is gonna keep happening, I am gonna keep falling, its annoying. i just wanna make it for once.