Friday, September 26, 2008

bailout

I am not one to say how I feel about anything. This bailout, tho, this makes me mad. Very Mad. I need to be bailed out too, I have debt, you have debt, we all do. Why not give the people that as a stimulus check, instead of the 600 bucks we got. Make sense? I see this as a bad idea, and things turning sour. This is my opinion.............

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Here..........................sums it all up :)

There's a place I've been looking for
That took me in and out of buildings
Behind windows, walls and doors
And I thought I found it
Couple times, even settled down
And I'd hang around just long enough
To find my way back out
I know now the place that I was trying to
ReachWas you, right here in front of me
And I wouldn't change a thing
I'd walk right back through the rain
Back to every broken heart
On the day that it was breakin'
And I'd relive all the years
And be thankful for the tears
I've cried with every stumbled step
That led to you and got me here, right here
It's amazing what I let my heart go through
To get me where it got me
In this moment here with you
And it passed me byGod knows how many times
I was so caught up in holding
What I never thought I'd find
I know now, there's a million roadsI had to take
To get me in your arms that way
In a love I never thought I'd get to get to-here
And if that's the roadGod made me take to be with you
And I'd relive all the years
And be thankful for all the tears
I've cried with every stumbled step
That led to you and got me here, right here

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

roll with me

Wake up in the morning
Get to living my life
Making sure that Im all that I can be
So now I'm slowing it down and I'm looking around
And I'm lovin' this town and I'm doing alright
Aint' worried 'bout nothing except the person I wanna be
I'm thinking it's time to be livin' the rhyme
When I'm singing a song about nothing but right
And it'd sure be nice if you would roll with me

what is the right opinion?

I am not one to ever really put my opinions out there for everyone to know. Sometimes, things really eat at me and I have to say something. For example, religion.

No one is going to have the same opinion. People are always going to think that they exactly what God is thinking. No one knows what God is thinking. No one knows what I am thinking.

I grew up in the church, and as I have become an adult, now I question everything. I grew up in the Methodist Church. My dad was Baptist, my mom Methodist. The one thing that I dont understand is why Baptist and Methodist have to be so different when they are one in the same. All religion, Baptist, Methodist, Catholic, Judaism, etc, all have the fundamental belief in God. Judaism does not believe that Jesus was a prophet, he was a man. There is no Christmas and no Easter, instead there is Rosh Hasshana (I spelt that wrong!), and Passover. How is this any different? Aren't they all based on the same premise? I would say so. In every religion you are going to hear that God spoke to Moses thru a burning bush. (If I ever hear a voice from a buring bush, I am gonna be goen so quick!) We all know that story, and we all know about Noah and the Ark.

My question is why debate me on what Leviticus may say about my lifestyle? It bothers me when people judge me and tell me that I am messing up when they have commited adultry or worse. How is one sin different from another? Its not. I honestly do not think that when I die, God is gonna have me standing beside someone who murdered people and let them in and not me. He isnt gonna look at me and say "You had a physical intimate relationship with another woman, so I cant let you in." We are ALL taught in church that God is a forgiving God. Then why as people can we NOT forgive. Will someone explain that to me?

Everything that happens in our lives is directly effected by religion. Someone telling me to have a blessed day, kinda offends me. I understand that you want me to have a good day, but is that not a way to force some religion on someone?

I worked at Camp Don Lee for three years, and I loved every minute of it. It was something I am glad that I did. I learned alot and started to form my own opinion. Camp made me part of the person that I am. I began to question alot of things while I was there.

When it comes to this topic, you are gonna believe what you believe, and I am going to respect it. All i ask is that you do that same in return.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

decisions

We all make decisions that are going to effect us immediatly and permanetly. (I cannot spell today) I was thinking about decisions I have made today. Good bad and ugly. Most have been good and bad. I made a very complicated decison (ephiany, rather) about people to date. I made good decsions in choices for jobs. I made bad decsions regarding relationships. I have finally made a good one tho. I have made bad ones too, like when I began drinking for example. This was a BAD decision. I have no idea where I am going with this. I am happy for a change, and lets all try to accept that!

Monday, September 15, 2008

why does it go back to you?

back to you it always comes around back to you I tried to forget you I tried to stay away But it's too late over you I'm never over over you something about you It's just the way you move the way you move me I'm so good at forgetting and I quit every game I've played but forgive me love I can't turn and walk away back to you it always comes around back to you I walk with your shadow I'm sleeping in my bed with your silhouette should have smiled in that picture if it's the last that I'll see of you it's the least that you could not do oh I will leave the light on I'll never give up on you leave the light on for me too back to me I know that it comes back to me doesn't it scare you your will is not as strong as it used to be

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

stress

i am broke, stressed, frustrated, pissed at a lot of people, and worried about everything. can anyone help me? then again, does anyone want too?

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

august 31

lets just say this. i got thru it. i cried a little, i laughed a little, but i got thru it. i couldnt have without Korb tho! Thanks Korb!!!!