One More Day

Days like today when everything seems to fall apart, I start to miss my mom even more. She was my rock. She was my shield, she was everything a mother should be. Her death threw me into a tailspin. i started to drink heavily. I am back at that phase in my life again. I am trying not to start drinking again, but its really hard to do. I just want to hear her say, its all gonna be alright. Thats all.

everything i touch turns to crap

so, apparently I have screwed up once again. story of my life.

The Election is over

Ok, So this election was the biggest election in recent history. This one compares to Kennedy-Nixon of my parents generation. We all had an idea who was going to win. No one is going to be happy about it. There is always going to be someone who is angry about the election. For the next 4 years Rush Limbaugh is gonna give himself an anuesum complaining......Why wont he run then and shut his mouth. I get so tired of trying to express my opinion on this election. Simply because NO ONE wants to listen. The media shows images and distorts things and that become the reality that we have. No one wants to get to know the man. They assume that he is Muslim and that he wont put his hand over his heart during the pledge of alligence. Honestly, about seven times out of ten, I forget to do it too, even during the National Anthem.
As far as spreading the wealth. Way too many people took this way to literaly. I dont think he means that the welfare mom with 6 kids who has been using the system will get more money. I inturpretted it as the person like me who makes a reasonable salary but still lives hand to mouth or paycheck to paycheck, will be given a break. I found a website lately that shows the difference in taxes from 1776 (the founding of this wonderful country) to now. For example, inheritance tax, etc. We cannot compain about paying taxes. Hell, my car taxes are 250 a year, and I hate that, but I cant change it. The President CAN NOT change it.
The President is a figure head. Lets all think back for a moment. I know we all remember our senior year of High School when you had Student Governement elections. What did the Class President do? They spoke at Graduation and went to the meetings, it was the Class Represenatives like me that did all the work. We would debate a topic and the President would present it. That is how it is for the country as well. He is a figure head. He makes request of Congress, and they either agree or overrule him. He does have the power to Veto a vote. Much like Bush did with the Hate Crimes legislation that he vetoed. (That pissed me off by the way!)
We cannot change this now. Whats done is done. We can hope that he does get the economy turned around. I dont know what is going to happen, no one knows. I know that at this point, the country has shown that we are NOT a racist country. Had John McCain won this election, I think the race card would have been played today.
I saw an image of Jesse Jackson on CNN last night and he was crying. He was so happy that a black man had been elected president. Obama's mother was white. Why do we keep forgetting this? His father was black, yes but his mother was white. Yes, he made history about 11pm last night. Instead of us saying he is the first black president, why not the first multi-race president?
North Carolina typically is a red state. Last night it became a blue state. Its the first time since 1964 that it has been won by a Democrat. The race was too close to call until this morning, when it was called a blue state. The margin of victory was small. Very Small, but he managed to pull it out. Both candidates did a hell of a good job with their campaigns. But my question is this. Whats gonna happen to Sarah Palin now? I guess she is back to shooting moose! I just wondered. What does a candidiate do after a political loss?

my car got broken into

I wanna know who the bastard that broke into my car was. I have never seen that much glass in a car before. For a radar detector. Thats the irony. They didnt take anything else, just the radar detector. My Ipod was in the car and my office cell phone. They left both of those alone. Wow, if all I got say. You cannot imagine the sheer terror I felt when walking up to my car and seeing the glass everywhere. It was not pretty. I flipped out. I called my dad, I called Angela, I called Wynton, I called everyone. I didnt know what to do. I called the cops. The cops never showed up. They never showed. I have no faith in the system.

walking away

we were young i was foolish to ever think that this could last foreveri knew nothing of what a love could bring but now that you're gone i'm still smiling 'cause there is comfort in this solitude and i've learned to sleep alone again and extra pillows i've no need for now 'cause just one towel hangs from the bathroom wall but i'm fine and i'll be okay still got a lotta love to give away it was time so i said goodbye and then i walked away i'd had enough of your insensitivities the way you looked at me and said your face is looking fuller made me ugly so you'd be pretty well where did that get me down to one twenty well there are a lot of things i'm still quite mad about and you say it's time to forgive again well i let you in so close and you hurt me the most and it'll be some time before i learned to trust again but i'm fine and i'll be okay, still got a lot of love to give away and you can go absolutely fuck yourself for saying i'd never be on my feet again well nothing left to say so i'll take these feet now and walk away so here we are two grown up kids i'm wondering if i did the right thing by leaving let's leave it at this skip the goodbye kiss and don't you ever start to miss us and please don't call me and ask how i'm doing you know cause i'll work out alone again and one last thing i'd like to know exactly when we fell apart but that's all over now and yeah you can keep the cat and now i'm walking i'm walking i'll always be walking away

walking away

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away to find a better day
I'm walking away

we really arent that different

Look behind your own soul
And the person that you'll see
Just might remind you of me
I laugh, I love, I hope, I try
I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry
And I know you do the same things, too
So we're really not that different, me and you